My Lovely Little Pit

My Lovely Little Pit

Climbing out of this pit felt so difficult just a few days before. I’ve amazed myself, because I had almost given up. I was so close to accepting defeat, and be willing to live in darkness. “What would be so different about living in darkness, versus living in the light of day? I had asked myself.” Believe it or not, everything I needed, or only thought I needed, was in my pit. A human beings basic necessities could be found in my lovely little pit, which I had created. Food, shelter, and water, and myself, were all that I really needed.
But of course, loneliness began to seep its way into my mind and my heart. Loneliness is much stronger than you and I you know. Loneliness can either defeat you and stunt your growth and impair your senses; or, it can do quite the opposite. Loneliness at times can motivate you to find an inner strength you never knew you had in you. That’s when I knew I had to climb out of my pit. Darkness was still around me. But I had seen the light of day before, and decided to focus on the light in me. This light that was in me from days that had passed was shining still! I couldn’t give up. There was no way I would let myself live in this deep dark pit any longer!
My heart raced, even when it was time to sleep. I had to fight my own heart. Because even though we are all familiar with the old adage, that says you should follow your heart; your own heart can sometimes betray you. My plans were still to climb out of this deep dark pit. My conversations with my heart made me and my heart stronger. It told me it did not want to get out of the pit because of the comfortable familiar feel of it all. I told my heart that I genuinely understood. But I also told my heart that although it had gotten me through so many dilemmas; in this case I was right.
Even though my heart was usually right, when I was wrong, this time it was the other way around. It was almost like a son conversing with an elderly parent. I pleaded with my heart to please let me be the one to take care of it. That way, it would remain strong. That way, it would be able to nurture me again, and again, for years to come. My heart agreed, and it allowed me to sleep.